Crippled by Insecurity
Today I'm crippled by insecurity
A knotted stomach,
twisted vertebrate,
clenched jaw, hunched spine.
Jet lagged from childhood programmed thoughts wreaking havoc on my sanity.
'No one understands me', 'I'm not good enough, not worthy enough, not safe enough... you know the score.
A well worn tune, a familiar hym, the crescendo of which creates a mighty ring a ding ding.
I'm embarrassed to be caught singing along. Yet I know from my work I'm not the only one.
The production designer creating a blockbuster film,
the award winning photographer setting up a shoot,
the artist who just sold a painting for a price beyond their dreams,
the expert advising governments globally from their barn,
the set decorator contemplating how Parkinson's will shape their career,
the surgeon whose skills saved another life...
They too sing along to insecurity's song mostly aware it's only one, of a broad repertoire of life songs.
by Kirstien Bjerregaard
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How about you?
Are you human to?
Maybe it helps to know insecurity, imposter syndrome, anxiety, doubt, depression…
• are created by thoughts you have, (conscious and unconscious), which are experienced in a fully embodied way (uprightness, tension, narrow minded, sluggish)
• are a natural aspect of the human experience when we feel like we have to define, protect and maintain our sense of self,
• pass when we become more interested with what's 'real' in the here and now.
Rather than reject these unwanted states we can appreciate them for what they are, insightful bumps along the edge of the road, (aka cats eyes), that let know you, you've strayed off course, from being fully available to what's actually here right now, the infinite expansiveness of life's vitality and force.
Curious? Get in touch for a conversation about navigating life with greater ease and grace.
In her work as a trainer, coach, mentor and therapist, Kirstien supports people to wake up to their natural state of wellbeing, wisdom, resilience and potential whatever the circumstance.